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This is the first of three epilogues. A bit of longer reading than usual.
Bit of long time since I put pictures up.
Chapter One Hundred and Twenty One Epilogue: Painting of a Beauty
It was another blooming time of the year. Recently, all of Rui Wang Fu was full of cheer. Wang ye had just recovered his qin wang rank, and wang fei was pregnant. This could be considered the best things to have happened in the recent years for Rui Wang Fu.
Before marrying into the wang fu, Lu Yu Rong had thought Rui Wang was a lecherous and preposterous man. But only when she had entered the wang fu did she know how unfounded rumors could be. The third day after she married into the wang fu, wang ye accompanied her back to her paternal home and sent away a crowd of tong fang from the wang fu. Even though some of them had been bestowed down by the Emperor and couldn’t move out of the wang fu, the time that wang ye went to those women’s rooms lessened dramatically.
Gradually, wang ye started to like painting. And what he liked to draw best were bright and eye-catching red flowers. She had once asked him why he liked painting such vivid flowers but he didn’t say anything.
Before marriage, there was someone else in her heart. But one could not rebel against the Imperial Order. She had to marry this man who didn’t have a good reputation but her days were much better than she had imagined.
But maybe it was the nature of all men to be fickle. After she became pregnant, wang ye became interested in a tong fang. He visited her frequently in the day, but the majority of the time, he slept in the tongfang’s place.
But to her, this wasn’t anything major. Since she couldn’t marry the man she liked. Who she married, who that person loved, what did it have to do with her?
All the servants in Rui Wang Fu knew that the relationship between wang ye and the new wang fei was better than the old one so no one dared to slight wang fei. Even more, wang fei was pregnant. But quickly, servants with keen eyes found the brows and mouth of wang ye’s newly favored tongfang were very similar to wang fei. The servants then understood that it was that wang fei couldn’t have relations with wang ye due to her pregnancy so wang ye was finding comfort on another person’s body.
When Lu Yu Rong heard that rumor, she was even more generous to all the tong fang and qieshi. In the end, the houyuan of Rui Wang Fu became more and more peaceful, drastically different than the smoke and fire of the past.
She had once encountered a yahuan named Yao Xi in the wang fu. She recognized this yahuan. She was the personal maid of Qu Yue Su. She remembered that year when she and Qu Yue Su had composed poetry to amuse Jin An Princess Royal and the other wang fei had judged them. But who knew that the previous Rui Wang Fu would be executed, Qu ce fei would die from illness and she would become the second wang fei.
Destiny was just this ironic. If people wanted it, they didn’t get it, if they didn’t want it, it was shoved onto them. Wrongs and rights. By the end, who was the one who was the joke, who was the one that is a pity.
The first time she saw wang ye could draw people, it was the third month of her pregnancy. At that time, the beginning of summer had ended and she was too hot to fall asleep. She had walked around. For some reason, she walked into the study and saw the unfinished painting on the table.
It was a very solitary painting. The blooming plum blossoms, the thick layer of snow, and a half-open exquisite sedan in the midst of the snowflakes. There was a hazy shadow in the sedan, only revealing a shock of black hair and a red sleeve.
An empty painting, but she felt as though she was the artist of the painting, and was admiring the woman in the sedan, waiting for her to raise the curtain the entire way. But in the end, the person had pulled down the curtain instead.
Sighing, she reached out with a hand to touch the corner of the sleeve that was flying in the harsh wind. But before she could touch, heavy steps came from behind her.
She suddenly turned back and saw wang ye standing with a cold face at the door. The eyes he had when he looked at her, it was as though he was looking at a stranger, cool and indifferent.
“Wang ye… …” Her voice was somewhat dry and she strangely felt guilty.
“Why has wang fei come here?” He came up and put away the painting, his voice as gentle as usual, “I’ll accompany you back, the road is hard to walk at night.”
She followed him out of the study. Turning back to look at the doors to the study that were already closed, she couldn’t resist asking: “That drawing, wang ye, it’s seems like the landscape outside our plum forest.”
“En,” He nodded ambiguously, “White snow, red plums, it’s beautiful to draw.”
Thinking about the feeling from the painting, she agreed wholeheartedly with wang ye’s explanation. The white of the snow and the red of the plum flowers were especially beautiful. Even that piece of sleeve was to tempt others’ imagination. Wang ye’s skills were getting better and better.
Since then, she never saw wang ye draw other people, not even her or their child. But, wang ye’s paintings steadily became famous in Da Long. Many people would give a thousand gold to beg for one of wang ye’s paintings. But she rarely saw wang ye give them away, the fu accumulating many.
She knew that the relationship between the Emperor and wang ye wasn’t close so she and wang ye rarely were summoned into the palace. Thankfully, wang ye’s personality was a lot better now so even though the palace was cold to wang ye, if he was summoned, wang ye would control his temper and go each time. And in front of the two Empress Dowagers, the Emperor and Empress, he was extremely friendly. Even she couldn’t see any signs of unhappiness.
If wang ye had been like this in the beginning, the circumstances of Rui Wang Fu wouldn’t have been so awkward.
Later, the reason that the circumstances of Rui Wang Fu were resolved was actually because the Empress suddenly became interested in paintings. So the noble families all wanted to curry favor with the Emperor by buying good artwork everywhere in hopes of gaining the Empress’ favor.
The Emperor and Empress had been together for quite a few years. But after so many years, the love between Emperor and Empress was still strong. Many people that were waiting for a spectacle were disappointed. In the end, they reasoned that the Empress was very good at taking care of herself, her looks were still so seductive after so many years.
She scoffed at such sour words. Just by looks, the Empress was beautiful but not to the point of the most beautiful. Even though she had willow brows and “phoenix eyes”, but those weren’t a rarity in the world. Even her own features were the same, but she didn’t have the Empress’ snow white skin and composure.
Beautiful women could be found everywhere, but what was rare was the qualities of attractiveness. The feeling that the Empress gave others was seductive yet out of the world, vivid yet dignified. Such a contradictory woman was rare in the world but it was easy for people’s hearts to move. Because this disregarded the outer shell and was something that came from the deep parts of the soul, it was hard for others to ignore.
When wang ye took out some paintings for her to take in the palace, she was very surprised. But she hoped that the Empress would look on wang ye’s paintings and help Rui Wang Fu to not be in such an awkward position, so her child could establish himself in Da Long as he grew up.
Kui Yuan Palace was forever lavish and bright. Every time she entered this place, she would forget this was the hougong and not some family’s compound.
“Good day, Third Aunt.” The seven years-old Crown Prince stood in front of her. His looks were outstanding. Even though he now had didi and meimei, but no one in Jing would think that the position of Crown Prince was going to shake.
The Empress was a great woman. She raised the Crown Prince well. His actions and speech were extremely polite yet didn’t seem rigid.
“Your Highness Crown Prince, good day,” She couldn’t help but smile. Adults frequently were most soft-hearted for children, “Is the Empress free now?”
“Muhou just said that if I encountered you on the road, I should tell you to just head in,” the Crown Prince smiled and added, “Third Aunt, I’m going to accompany fuhuang to practice writing.”
Such a young age. It was clearly the Emperor teaching him to write but in his mouth, it became him accompanying the Emperor. Lu Yu Rong sighed. It was clear to see how patient the Emperor and Empress were in teaching the Crown Prince.
Entering the main hall of Kui Yuan Palace, she saw the Empress and the wife of lao si were chatting as they sat together. Seeing her enter, they involved her in talking about some of the interesting things around the city of Jing, the mood so harmonious that one could forget it was still the hougong.
However, she still remembered to take out the three paintings that wang ye gave her. She didn’t know what was drawn on the scrolls so when the Empress went to open them, she was curious as well.
The first painting was a cat playing with an orchid. Just a glance made people relax and refreshed. She had seen this before. Wang ye had done many copies before he made one he was satisfied with. She hadn’t thought he would willingly send it to the palace.
The second painting was of spring. The green mountains, the blue waters, the hundreds of flowers blooming. This was a scene that couldn’t be seen in the hougong. So beautiful it seemed unreal. Her heart moved when she saw it. Wang ye had spent more than a few months to finish painting this work. He had hung it in his bedroom to admire, but now he also sent it to the palace.
When the third scroll was gradually opened, she was shocked still. She didn’t think that this painting that wang ye had put away that year would once again appear in front of her.
“Drawing of winter snow and red plums……” The white fingers of the Empress gently touched the corner of the drawing. A long time later, she said, “Such a good plum blossom painting. The whiter the snow, the redder the plum blossoms.”
She just was able to see where the Empress had touched, there was half a figure barely discernable. But because that person had been wearing white, it was very hard for others to find.
“A person’s life on earth is like a white steed racing past, suddenly gone……” She didn’t understand the expression on the Empress’ face. She didn’t even understand why the Empress would recite such a line.
Even when she was leaving the palace, she still didn’t understand what the Empress meant. She didn’t know if the Empress liked wang ye’s paintings. However, not long after, the Empress became tired of admiring paintings and turned to favor listening to the stories of talented women across the country.
She didn’t tell wang ye of the two lines of nonsensical poetry that the Empress had said. But wang ye had never asked her what happened when she went to the palace that time. It was as though nothing had happened, unperturbed and quiet.
Later, wang ye was pardoned by the Emperor and could attend court. But she felt that wang ye didn’t feel very happy at such a thing.
Wang ye still liked painting, and still didn’t like giving the paintings away to anyone. Gradually, the child grew up. The one she had once liked was indistinct in her mind, just like a dream. After a while, one woke up.
The day of her son’s wedding, seeing her son and erxi kneel to her, she suddenly realized that this was pretty much her lifetime.
After the newlyweds were sent into the bridal rooms, she suddenly turned but only saw the back of wang ye as he personally sent the Crown Prince out the door.
The day that wang ye left, feathery snow came down from the sky, and the plum flowers in the plum forest had bloomed exceptionally well.
She sat at the head of the bed, looking at this old yet still handsome man. Sorrow quietly creeping in.
“Today’s snow is quite heavy, did it snow all night?” He suddenly became focused, even his pale face became red.
“En,” Her voice was choked. Beside her, her son and grandchildren started to cry.
“The snow that year wasn’t this heavy, the plum blossoms weren’t as good as this year……” His gaze landed on the branch of plum flowers in the pot and shook his head, saying: “A pity, a pity.”
“Fu wang… …” Her son sobbed in front of the bed, and her own eyes started to mist up.
“Guan’er, don’t cry. After I pass, remember to take that painting in the sandalwood box of the fifth square in my study into my coffin,” He slowly closed his eyes and sighed.
“After seeing the ocean, no other water can compare ……that’s it…… that’s it……”
She didn’t know how she stood up, how she watched the white banners hung up over the wang fu until she saw her son take out the sandalwood box that held the painting.
The scroll slowly rolled open and she froze in place..
On the painting, it was a busy street during the Lantern Festival. The beautiful lanterns, a beautiful woman dressed plainly holding a lantern and the fireworks exploding in the sky.
It was a painting that was so beautiful one couldn’t tear the eyes away. It contained all the feelings of the artist, just to depict the skin of the beauty, the bones of the beauty and the emotions buried deep in the heart.
“You walk and walk and don’t stop, and tear you and I part. Now, there are thousand upon ten thousand miles that separate you and I, I at this end of the world while you at the other … …” Shaking as she recited the poem inscribed on the painting, Lu Yu Rong suddenly remembered how he had gently touched her brow on their wedding night.
Gently rolling up the painting, she put it in the wood box. Closing the box, she dried off her tears: “Put this under the pillow of wang ye.”
A painting of a beauty, the bones of a hero. In the end, it was all a handful of dirt.
A person’s life in this world is like a white steed racing past, suddenly gone.
She thought, she understood somewhat now.
it’s 6am and i’m sobbing my eyes out this was better than I could have ever hoped -ugly sobs- really hope he either gets to reincarnate and somehow be with her or at least find her in another life, aaaaah I just want my ship to sail somehow, lol. thanks so for translating this beautiful novel; I’ll probably never forget it, lol. Haven’t been moved to tears by a story in a good long while! You’re amazing for taking the time to bring this to us!
its a picture of duan wangfei?
Yes, that is the picture of Qu Qing Ju from when Qin Bai Lu first held plum blossom viewing during winter.. Chapter 26: “People Are Not the Same, Roads Are Not the Same”. Pasting the title of the chapter here, we can see the irony.. My heart ache for He Yuan and Lu Yu Rong *sigh*
He Yuan only glimpsed at her back then. Who knows he would carved it in his heart and lament each and everyday of his life. AAAAAAAA THE FEELS MANNN
It’s so sad. He Yuan just kept longing for the rest of his life. Never would have guessed he would turn out to be my favorite character; I really loved his character development the most.
Rereading this and I still can’t find sympathy for this man. He used women as items. I know he changed but I can’t forgive how he was before. I know he was a product of him being so spoiled as a child but still. Also, I think he loved the idea of Qu Qing Ju and not the woman herself. Heck, with all the proprietary customs, he wouldn’t have had the chance to know her.
Then again, what do I know. I’m more mind over heart so I probably can’t relate to this man.
If you are more mind over heart, you should know the environment we’re in is what shapes us. If society thinks it’s OK to have a harem and everyone’s fed with the mindset that the woman obeys their man and stays at home, all of the society looks down on women so you’re bound to accept it as a fact, because everyone else does. They don’t even consider it looking down on women because that’s just how their reality is. Meanwhile he was a pampered prince who outgrew this behavior and shaped up. After going through struggles he realized how wrong he was, and again he changed with the environment to become a decent and loved member of his family. You might not like him but don’t turn down the chance of learning how other people view the world. It’s oddly exciting!!
Same here. All I could think of was how he had abused and raped Qi Yue. Touching story but I don’t feel any sympathy for him.
Same, I’m also a mind over heart person. I don’t agree with those who are crying over him and his love right now. Like yes, I appreciated his character development but I’m not sure why people are shipping him and QQJ. why? Like you said, he was in love with the idea of her and not her. I think he was stuck in the same delusion that QBL (his ex wife) was. The idea of “what ifs” and “what could’ve beens” What if the one he’d married had been her? What could’ve happened if they were married? I can tell that he’s attracted to her yes, but there’s nothing beyond being interested in what someone else has. he’s (and the shippers are) also completely disregarding the fact that he wasn’t this kind of person when he’d married QBL so how would he treat QQJ any different from how he treated QBL? If anything, she would’ve been the “perfect” wife and they would’ve maintained a distant but respectful relationship. He might’ve even hated her to an extent due to her situation with the Qu family. Remember the reason why he’d married QBL was because he and his mom felt that she and the Qin family was more beneficial. They wouldn’t have fought as much as QBL and he did but it definitely wouldn’t be like HH and QQJ’s loving relationship.
So that’s why I don’t understand where the HY and QQJ shippers are coming from. And I kind of don’t like his ending here as someone who pined over his brother’s wife. If anything, I kind of feel bad for his wife but she seems to be a practical lady too so I’m not too sad.
I think the shippers come from this epilogue, from his final arc, and that’s why they say they wish they find each other in another life, maybe reincarnated or reborn, so that he’ll remember her the way he did when he died and treats her well.
But I agree that if he had married her, maybe even the original QQJ wouldn’t have died and our protagonist wouldn’t have inhabited her body, therefore wouldn’t have become the QQJ that he loved. Or, even if QQJ still had transmigrated she would have never even be as warm as she was with HH, precisely because he was an asshole.
My 2nd time reading this novel. Maybe because out of the 20-30 novels I’ve been reading since 2017, this is the only completed novel but my mind keeps coming back to it. I wonder if I would have been as calm and collected as our FL. I actually don’t think he would have loved QQJ if she had been married to him, seeing her with another man, seeing how that man behaved for her made him curious about her and he fell in love with the her that made her brother a great man. He wouldn’t have loved and respected her if she had been married to him.
Happy re-reading! Translations take quite some time to complete.
Thank you for your hard work and beautiful translation. I have learned so much about the culture and words from this novel.
This chapter really gives me a bittersweet feeling. Idk whether i should simpaty or not toward rui wang. But, this is a pretty good ending for him. Though he only can longing for someone he couldnt have his entire life… :'(
He got a good character, he grow up. But if we think about this once again, he really got nothing, he didnt get the throne, the woman he loved, her mother was like crazy. He grow up, he mattured, but he didnt get what the current him desserve. This is a tragedy, yet a little romantic.
Bittersweet indeed:’)
His love, like HH’s, was also lasting. I would like to know what it would like if qing ju end up with him:)
In my opinion he didn’t grow much. If he did, he wouldn’t long for a married woman. Plus instead of being happy with what he has, he longs for something that is untouchable. AGAIN.
He did grow. He isn’t so impulsive anymore and he calmed down a lot. But does that mean he deserves the fl and deserves to be with her?
He keeps living in a dream: in the first part of his life it was the throne. The thing that changed is what he desired became the empress instead of the throne.
So no. I don’t think it’s romantic or sad or touching. I find it pretty disgusting. Not even trying to move on with your new bride. Only drowning himself in self-pity while drinking and fantasizing about your half-brother’s wife. Why do people make something disgusting romantic?
The only one I feel sad for is his wife. I am confident that if he gave her a chance, she would put her heart into it. She liked someone before, but she never drowned herself in that someone. So she didn’t get the one she liked plus didn’t even have the chance to move on with her husband.
The “when you see the ocean, no waters can compare.” It’s just laughable when you don’t even explore other oceans! When you fixate on that one ocean, of course you will never see the beauty of other oceans, seas, rivers… the problem isn’t with the others but with him who doesn’t want to take his eyes off!
These things always leave me with a bad taste. Why make it that some people just can’t move on? That is so unreasonable and unrealistic. And for God’s sake, not romantic at all. Because then it isn’t love anymore (or never was from the beginning). Just a unhealthy obsession! Why can’t people distinguish the two? In his death bed only thinking about a woman he has seen a couple of times instead of his children and wife who have accompanied him over the years. Even indirectly mentioning that his wife can’t compare. Yeah… no, that’s not romantic. It just makes me want to throw up.
I was really hoping he would get a happy ending when he started to change. The moment his feelings for fl started showing, I was like “no please no. Don’t make him that kind of character, author”. But even then I was hoping that when he married, he would do the healthy and right thing by trying to move on with the person beside him. But I’m not too surprised it didn’t happen. Because from the beginning he had a tendency to not be satisfied with what he got and only thinking about things he doesn’t deserve and can’t have.
Obsessing and longing about someone their entire life, doesn’t mean they deserve that person.
I would like to thank you, really your analysis has given me a new perspective. It’s true, when we stubbornly fixate on something or someone, we never get to see the beauty of what others have to offer.
Your comment is exactly my thoughts. I have always admired people that had someone that would kill for them and they would do absolutely ANYTHING for the person, or so they say. It is not live, it is obsession, they are in love with the feeling the person gives them, and not the person themselves. When they get what they want, the emotions towards the person fades, they will run towards another that gives them the emotions they yearn so dearly for. The human heart is fickle, sometimes unhealthy obsession and addicting for a certain type of emotion is covered up by so called love as a facade. It’s also pretty pathetic to want someone that he cannot get, This shows that he obviously doesn’t love her but the emotions she brings him, these kinds of people are the worst. Because once they loose their reason to “love”, their past obsession will be discarded.
This chapter really gives me a bittersweet feeling. Idk whether i should simpaty or not toward rui wang. But, this is a pretty good ending for him. Though he only can longing for someone he couldnt have his entire life… :'(
He got a good character, he grow up. But if we think about this once again, he really got nothing, he didnt get the throne, the woman he loved, her mother was like crazy. He grow up, he mattured, but he didnt get what the current him desserve. This is a tragedy, yet a little romantic.
Bittersweet indeed:’)
His love, like HH’s, was also lasting. I would like to know what it would like if qing ju end up with him:)
In my opinion he didn’t grow much. If he did, he wouldn’t long for a married woman. Plus instead of being happy with what he has, he longs for something that is untouchable. AGAIN.
He did grow. He isn’t so impulsive anymore and he calmed down a lot. But does that mean he deserves the fl and deserves to be with her?
He keeps living in a dream: in the first part of his life it was the throne. The only that changed is what he desired became the empress instead of the throne.
So no. I don’t think it’s romantic or sad or touching. I find it pretty disgusting. Not even trying to move on with your new bride. Only drowning himself in self-pity while drinking and fantasizing about your half-brother’s wife. Why do people make something disgusting romantic?
The only one I feel sad for is his wife. I am confident that if he gave her a chance, she would put her heart into it. She liked someone before, but she never drowned herself in that someone. So she didn’t get the one she liked plus didn’t even have the chance to move on with her husband.
The “when you see the ocean, no waters can compare.” It’s just laughable when you don’t even explore other oceans! When you fixate on only this one ocean, of course you won’t see the beauty of other oceans, seas, rivers… the problem is not with the waters but with him who doesn’t take even give others a chance!
These things always leave me with a bad taste. Why make it that some people just can’t move on? That is so unreasonable and unrealistic. And for God’s sake, not romantic at all. Because then it isn’t love anymore (or never was from the beginning). Just a unhealthy obsession! Why can’t people distinguish the two? In his death bed only thinking about a woman he has seen a couple of times instead of his children and wife who have accompanied him over the years. Even indirectly mentioning that his wife can’t compare. Yeah no that’s not romantic. Just disgusting
I was hoping for a happy ending for him when he started to change. But it seems like his obsessing over something he doesn’t deserve, didn’t change. What also didn’t change is him not being content with what he has. Always reaching to get something he can’t have, but never giving and truly put effort in what he has.
Obsessing and longing their entire lives over someone, doesn’t automatically mean they deserve that someone!
From the story, I believe He yuan ending is very appropriate.
I mean just look at he heng, a few times author hint that he do still flirt with other women, but does it mean he does not love Qing ju? And its only because Qing ju adamantly told him that she want him to look at her only that He Heng slowly stop his behaviour.
I think it’s the same with He yuan and his wife. He yuan treat his wife as a wife. And His wife, Yu rong treat He yuan as her husband. She does not treat him as the love of her life, and He yuan the same too.
As for He yuan obsession with Qing ju, I would like to think that its not the empress Qing ju that he obsess with, its only the image of Qing Ju in his head that he cant let go.
For me, this is very well thought ending.
3rd time re-reading or maybe 4th… who cares.. the point…
i feel like this chapter was the closest to real life. people grow up and change and just because they do, doesn’t mean they will get their happy ending. and so like this guy had to do, he made a life for himself. he married, had kids, participated in life and politics, and did his best with what life gave to him, both before and after his father was alive.
novels like this on are usually full of things that rarely meet reality. in real life, people forget what they said before, they forget most of what happened to them in their childhood, they mature in bits and pieces or spurts, they are usually not well rounded, they change their opinions, they have a variety of relatives and relations with people…
this book contains some just enough reality which is great and why i’m back here whenever I want something sweet but also with enough meat to stick my reading teeth into:). this particular chapter really makes this novel a joy.
So emotional… crying my eyes out…
Never thought I would feel so much sympathy for He yuan
It would be good if in another world he reincarnates and be with her….just like in chongfei manual
This is my second time reading this novel, but it’s my first time finishing all the way through (I stopped reading around chapter 63 back in the days and recently decided to pick it back up again).
There are many thoughts that ran through my mind after reading this chapter. The character development of He Yuan was perhaps one of the more satisfying ones for me. Not even He Qi had changed this much and was still holding onto his grudge with He Yuan (for instance, attitude towards He Yuan during the ladder’s wedding). When one has lost things that they originally thought were theirs, they usually would indulge in a wastrel life and eventually die with a tragic ending. He Yuan’s actions of indulging himself in alcohol (before remarriage) and then eventually took up on a more elegant hobby such as painting (after remarriage) was perhaps the best redemption for He Yuan. Yes, he was an arrogant prince before. And yes, he mistreated the women in his harem. During that time period, such things weren’t uncommon. Everyone will eventually grow up one day. Fortunately, He Yuan was able to accept his fate and didn’t attempt anything stupid, unlike his mother.
I also like the fact that he didn’t die alone in the end and was surrounded by his wife, children, and grandchildren. When the past emperor had died, he was also surrounded by his children in that stifling humid room. However, those who were sincerely sad about his passing can be counted on one hand. He Yuan passed away in the middle of winter, which juxtaposes the circumstance of death between the two father and son duo. The contrast in their thoughts during their last moment might not be that far off either. The last emperor thought about little He Yuan, but what he had uttered was Jing guifei’s name and stated his regrets in not treating her better. He Yuan in his last moments had thought about the red clad figure of his sister-in-law, who he had saw in the midst of the red plum forest. What he uttered before dying was also regret. I like how realistic the author had portrayed this concept. To die without any regret left in the world, that is both a rare occurrence and a blessing. Perhaps letting both father and son passed away with regrets of not treating women better/not marrying the “right” woman is the best ending for them.
There were so many pitiful “villain” characters in this novel. Most of them were victims of bad parenting and environment and not to forget they were all just kids, around their 20’s. They never got a chance to grow up properly.
But out of all of them why does my heartbreak for this bastard the most. He had bad parents and he learned the worst and no one ever dared to teach him the rights. And when he got finally grow up, it was already too late.
His love or obsession with QQJ, whatever you want to call it, I feel like he puts all of his regrets in there. Can’t forgive him for his sins but cant stop crying for this pitiful bastard.
I am glad he alteast treated his new wife good and died surrounded by people who truly mourned him.